Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in make_me_love's LiveJournal:

Friday, May 13th, 2005
7:00 pm	hmm . .. i wonder if my changes worked? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
12:55 pm	what else . . . . okay since i am still in school i can't type much! but cori if you read this you are coming over today! i figured he wouldn't listen and that is what i am going to do is just back off! that is all i can do! but yeah i am done with that blasted research paper and i am really hungry! Current Mood: hungry Current Music: only what is going on in my head (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 8th, 2005
10:05 pm	now i can speak okay i know that i should be off to bed but what fun is that i can sleep anyway . . .not with all this pressure of tomorrow at hand. i feel as if my wkend was a waste of time. i did absolutely nothing good for myself. i ate a lot bc of my cousin's party and at outback for mother's day. but who goes out to a party and doesn't eat or goes out to eat and doesn't just enjoy themselves, eh? but whatev. i am going to start running after school again. it has been like 3 weeks now since districts and that was the last time i ran anything. and i think that i want to do swim next year, but i am going to have to be in really good shape to do that. bc i am doing cross country and swim is in the same season and so i will be wearing myself out. but it is for the better for my lazy ass. and then my mom get off my back about my appearance. i swear that woman is more self-conscious about my body then i am. when it comes to planning a party there are ppl that you know you want to come and feel fine inviting them, but then there are others that you want to invite but if you invite them you have the obligation issue at hand. yeah . . . .that is totally happening to me. but whatev.i really do need to get in shape thou . . .run, run, run! and eat right! okay, so talking to philip is not going to do anything. no matter what i do or say to that estrogen filled boy it will never please him or be good enough. i am just going to stay away and let him be and if he wants to talk to me he will and if he doesn't then he doesn't and i will just have to accept it. but if i continue to push he will continue to pull. oh well . . . .life sucks and then you die, what else is there? can everyone be epicurean or what about everyone become hedonistic? that would be good too! anyways . . . today was my booboo's anniversaire de naissance! and i wished him a happy birthday! i love him sooo much and i know that recently i have not been talking about him all that much ut i do love him and would not rather go out with anyone else! even if . . . todd maloney where to come up to me and ask me out i would decline! i miss my boo and i am glad that i get to see him tomorrow! i am starting to get anxiety and this mainly happens at night. i am not all that sure if daren's mother approves of him having a g/f. i get so nervous around here and i know that she sense it. eh, i guess i don't blame her . . . i do not think that i am the absolute best for him in a mother's persective. where as my mom is like he is so wonderful and yadda yadda. but my dad is like what a fag he doesn't know how to change a tire and he has long hair and he wears a head band! he called him a fag (hehe i thought that it was kinda funny)! i do not like daren's bro bradley and we will leave it at that! is it wicked to not wish your mother a happy mother's day? Current Mood: restless Current Music: still my hawk nelson . . .then to my classics (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:14 pm	wow . . i did it yeah . . .i have my own live journal now! it took me a while to do it but i have accomplished the fine art. well, i am supposed to be doing my research paper that is do tomorrow that is worth 3 test grades in my english class and finishing this stupid kamishi-crap art project that was do the friday before midterms. maybe that explains the 16 that i got in art? hmm . . .whatev. anyways i am glad that nick is back from state! i know that i told him i would make him cookies, but i didn't. but my mom is crazy about daren and on top of me buying him a present, she bought him cologne! and not just any cheap kind, that new stuff from DKNY apple stuff! and the worst thing about it is . . .I do not even have an perfume of my own and she went and bought him cologne? wtf . . .! she loves him more then me! AND she also made him chocolate cupcakes with strawberry frosting and a chocolate covered strawberry on top.talk about going all out. well, we have extras so i am going to give nick one! yippy-yippy-yumm-yumm! he better like it. well, my birthday is coming up and i do not know what i am going to do! i want my loaded grandpa to take me shopping in gainesville. i think i can get him to do that. and if i can i will go into abercrombie and buy something for the first time! but only because my gramps is loaded. I am not sure how school will be tomorrow since that whole thing with rhonda happened on friday. i am kinda worried, but since nick is back i think that he will be able to calm her down or at least i hope that he will! i am still VERY upset at philip! he really did hurt me and i feel like he has betrayed me. well, knowing philip he will prob won't get over this till next track season! his emotions are to much like a female. i am always willing to forgive and forget with him thou. "from underneath i promise to erase the past and let my heart forget what has been done replace the dark of old and start brand new." i am sorry philip and to let you know "my shit is straight." now i am waiting for you. you really did hurt me. omg . . .if you like emo-punk music then you will love hawk nelson!!! they are pretty good! i highly reccommend! well off to do my work . . bluh! Current Mood: . . .and a procrastinator Current Music: hawk nelson . .fo sure (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:10 pm	wow . . .i did it! I have mastered the live journal and now i have one!!! woot! okay meghan, i thought that elder's g/f was pretty, but whatev. man i have so much work that i SHOULD be doing , but instead i am doing this! what a Procrastinator am i! and i heart it. i am kind of dreading going to school tomorrow on the account i am wondering what rhonda is going to do? does she hold grudges or will she get over it? is she like philip? i am forever going to be hurt by what philip has done to me adn how he has betrayed me as a friend. i am always willing to forgive and forget with him, but that will always bein the back of my mind "from underneath i promise to erase the past and let my heart forget what has been done replace the dark of old and start brand new." just for you philip. i am glad that nick is back from state! i know i told him that i would make him cookies, but i didn't. and he probably forgot anyway. so i have a yummy cupake with a chocolate covered strawberry on top. yippy-yippy-yumm-yumm!!!! he better like it! okay if you like emo-punk then you will love this group that i have just discovered. Hawk Nelson . . . .they have been around for a year or two! highly Recommend. okay well i guess i am off to do a research paper worth 3 test grades in english II and finish my kamishi-crap art project that was due the friday before midterms. maybe that's why i had a 16 in art? anyways . . . peace out! Current Mood: . . .and a procrastinator Current Music: hawk nelson . . .fo sure (Comment on this)